Today’s discussion at the Internet Cafe is about insecurity. Kim asked us the following questions:

First of all, do you struggle with “Insecurity” issues?

If no, why not?

If yes, can you tell of a specific situation that happened to you that brought out your insecurities (the more details, the better).

Again, if you do struggle with insecurity, what do you believe is the root cause of your insecurity?

What is the definition of insecurity? I looked at the online dictionary and found these definitions:

Results
1. 1 not confident or sure : uncertain – feeling somewhat insecure of his reception

2. 2 not adequately guarded or sustained : unsafe – an insecure investment

3. 3 not firmly fastened or fixed : shaky – the hinge is loose and insecure

4 a. 4 a not highly stable or well-adjusted – an insecure marriage b. b deficient in assurance : beset by fear and anxiety – always felt insecure in a group of strangers

Related Forms
1. in·se·cure·ly adverb
2. in·se·cure·ness noun
3. in·se·cu·ri·ty+in-si-!ky2r-u-tE -ˈkyu̇r-ə-tē noun

Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary copyright © 2008 by Merriam-Webster, incorporated

Do I struggle with insecurity issues? As I question my heart about this, I immediately think about the definition “beset by fear and anxiety.” As you know from my previous Cafe Chat posts, I have battled great fears in my life and have overcome some major strongholds. But I would be lying if I didn’t admit to still having some insecurities.

Can you tell of a specific situation that happened to you that brought out your insecurities? I don’t know if there was one specific incident that pushed me in that direction, but one situation just came to mind. When I started school (1st grade) I had to ride a bus with high school students. We lived 20 miles from school, and 20 miles at 40 mph … was a LONG ride! I stepped on the bus at 6:30am and arrived at school at 8am. I can remember getting on the school bus, innocent, scared, knowing NOBODY at all!

After my first day of school, as I got OFF of the bus, I felt a bunch of hands grabbing at my bottom as I ran past them. The older guys were feeling of me and there was NOTHING I could do. There was nobody there to protect a little girl. I endured a lot of emotional abuse like that on the bus as a young girl. There were always bigger, meaner kids around. That certainly didn’t help with any fears/insecurity I had. There was nowhere to hide and nobody to protect me.

I felt insecure about my looks growing up (until my older teen years). I was always taller than everyone else and I didn’t have the “cool” clothes. I remember when the Bass sandals were popular (do you remember these ladies?) and my parents couldn’t afford a pair. My sister bought me my first pair of Levi jeans when I was in the 4th grade. I wore those jeans so much that I had patches on the knees. I think I wore them almost every day (as if people wouldn’t notice with the SAME patches every day). Where was my Mom for cryin’ in the rain? Stuff like that makes a kid feel less-than when surrounded by others who are dressed alike. I’m sure you remember those days.

I don’t know why I didn’t defend myself as a young girl. I was so timid.

If you do struggle with insecurity, what do you believe is the root cause of your insecurity? I believe fear and rejection were the root causes. From the womb, I knew I wasn’t wanted and it grew from there.

Doesn’t insecurity, fear and the like spur from us LOOKING AT OURSELVES AND THINKING ABOUT OURSELVES? If my focus is totally on Jesus then there is no room for ME. Right? I wouldn’t be comparing myself to others. I wouldn’t be concerned about what others think of me, right? Me, me, me! How about YOU, YOU, YOU LORD! Less of ME and MORE OF YOU!

I challenge everyone who reads this to join me in removing the focus off of US and placing it where it belongs ON THE LORD.

I just thought of Peter walking on the water. When he took his eyes off of Jesus, he SANK. He focused on himself and the situation surrounding him.

Matthew 14:30
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”

God, please show us our hidden insecurities so that we can repent and move forward in You. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

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